hEy h0... :)

b0rEd,b0rEd b0rEd....hAiz! wat am i t0 do n0w? tmr is d day we gona celeb nad's & fiza's bday...yea,belated for fiza & adv fer nad...we'r suppose t0 b hapi...yes i am...bt somn is stil botherin me...nad & adi...haiz!

im seriously hoping dt evtg gona b juz fine...hoping dt tings cud turn out d way it used to b...d strong frenshp b0nd btwn those tw0 & d times we all spent togtha...now dt it wrecked,im helpless!! tmr adi has a game to play...he's playin tkraw against marsiling...i wana watch him play & i want him to b at karaoke wit d rez on time to0...i tod we cud start karaoke at 6.30...hopin dt adi can reach by 7.30-8...spare him juz dt 1 hour to b in d rm wit all of us so dat we can all celeb it 2ghta...can?? :(

unfortunately nad wants to enter earlier den dat...fer a reason dat duk has to book in at 10,leavin us at ard 8...i tod nad may send him off at 8.45-9...is dat enuf time? i duno...im caught btwn 2...adi & nad,my own bestie...i hope dat she undstd my position & tryna put her anger 1 side so dat evtg wil go on according to plan...evn if thr r a lil prob here & thr,at leaz tings will b juz fine...i knw nad is a lil hot-tempered...i undstd dat nad...bt im goin crazy tryna patch tings up...fer u,fer adi & fer evry1...

thr r times wen I juz feel like withdrawin frm d clan...i luv dem so much,seriously i do...bt probs r juz so hard to handle...nobody,i say NOBODY is taking any initiativ to step up & mend tings...evry1 seems to hav "time-will-heal" attitude dt wud actuali heal d heart longer...cnt dey juz giv in?? Evrytime thr's a prob,im d one in a daze...d one who is facin d prob juz dun botha abt d current state...s0 thr i am bein in my own daze which noone can undstd...wen i started to complain,ppl wud juz get bored & wudnt wana listen...c0z dey tink dat i kept braggin on it,not moving on or forget d subj...see wat i mean?? dey juz expct tings to heal by time...so here i am,complainin my hearts out!!! so i wun bother any1...true???? ARGH!!!!!!

im signin out...im pissin mysev off...
p/s: dun mind me wat i juz blurted out...im juz lettin off my anger...rili tired of keepin it inside uat JEROK!

-undesirabe pain